Sunday, January 20, 2013


i love cards (as previously/frequently mentioned on this blog) and i especially love birthday cards...shocking, i know.  i still have mine sitting on a shelf in my living room so i can look at them.  think i will keep them there just a tad longer cause they bring a smile to my face.  here are a few of my favs from this year:
hand picked king kong card (up international) from a few of my favorite boys: gorilla man and crosby
leigh hugging a big tree on the front of super special, made just for me, card from shutterfly
this card from charlotte (papyrus) that describes what i did pretty much the whole day
and the one from my parents (hallmark) talking about how they brag about me.  couldn't resist leaving the "ho" card in the picture: christmas card (southern fried paper) from my best friend who also, obviously, appreciates a sentimental, sappy card :)
there are many more and i love them all.  for all of you who celebrated with me this year, this is my card to you (quotable cards):

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

hard day

this is why this blog is so hard for me to keep up.  i am at work. it is 6:45 pm on a tuesday.  i am tired and stressed and want to go home yet cannot muster the energy to walk out into the cold, get on a bus, walk to my car, and drive myself (with a stop at the liquor store first, mind you) home to my couch.

here's what i did today:

-found a patient who is severely mentally ill with metastatic cancer placement in a nursing facility.  we did not think this could be done (she has been here 2 weeks) and was a major high for me today.  she was gone ONE HOUR and is back in her bed here waiting for me to fix the problems.  major low...and reason i am still here.

-found an elderly, dementia patient placement in nursing facility.  three in fact. and was brutally reminded that, while i am wanting a pt to be discharged immediately because placement in found, i frequently forget the angst and difficulty for family that comes with placing a loved one in a nursing home.  too hard to slow down and care about people's feelings when there are so many patients on your list.  i feel like an asshole.  it worked out in the end and he is going to a nice place tonight.  everyone's happy....or something like that.

-arranged transportation for several patients who could have probably taken the bus but due to weather needed other means....good deed for day.

-actively sought hospice for two patients.  one with insurance who will get hospice and will get to go home with her family, with all of the medication that she needs, all equipment needed to be comfortable, and a hospice emotional support that is unmatched.  one without insurance who was denied charity hospice (which i must side note is a really awesome service that many hospice agencies provide but are unfortunately always full as you can imagine) and will die in the hospital.  sad.

-found out that an ex-patient of mine, who was with me for approximately 8 months before he was able to go to a nursing home in october, died this week.  kind of sad, but really great that he is not in pain any longer.  i was so happy that his church friend called me to let me know.  lets you know you had an impact.

-attended three meetings, trained a new person, and tried to not cry or scream at anyone.

OK, i am finally feeling like making my way home.  thanks for listening to me decompress. this place is a roller coaster.  i mostly love it...the best coworkers/support system/therapists, patients with interesting life stories, exciting/new experiences daily, and a continuous learning experience. today the roller coaster just went too fast with too many loopty loops....and it is only tuesday :)

Sunday, January 6, 2013

cocktails and dancing

woohoooo, birthday party success!  if you know me, you know that i LOVE my birthday.  i am not sure why exactly, but maybe because it is just a really good excuse to get my friends together for a party.  if last night is any indication of the year to come, 34 might not be half bad :)

we hit up my favorite dallas dive bar, one nastalgia place.  it has definitely taken over our hearts and having the party there did not disappoint.  there was shuffleboard, karaoke, many cold beers, laughs, and memories made. 
can't wait until we have another reason to all go back and do it again. hopefully it will be before the big 3-5.


this is absolutely my favorite time of year.  it is a trifecta of fun.  christmas, new years, birthday.  i love the cool weather and the hustle of the holidays.  everything is just good.

we had a lovely christmas in borger/amarillo complete with snow, 
and skype,
and special gifts.
(handmade by cort!)

and, while i had to work new years eve and day, i got to be with some of my favorite people to ring in 2013 and am now spending the week of my birth having fun with the ones i love!